Friday: annoyed

Today I am annoyed. At least we got to have a picnic dinner with Dusty and Laura. The weather was beautiful.

Thursday: noticing

Lately I've noticed that I don't notice much while in the car. Dusty always teases me about not seeing his red truck when he's waving, but it's more than that. For example, I noticed a bright blue house the other day on a road that we travel on at least four times a week for the past three years. How did I not notice it before? I also seem to see new houses every day on my way to work, which I've now been doing for a year.

What have you noticed lately that has been around for a long time?

Wednesday: Flurry

RAWR

Tuesday: purses

I opened a tin of mints and they were in shapes of little purses! It was exciting.

Bible Study was good tonight, and afterwards we played Nutzee. We played with fewer people than normal and it really changed the dynamics. It was fun too.

Monday: nothing funny

I am sad to report that nothing funny has happened these last few days. (Although that sentence is almost funny in and of itself.) I've been having a hard time finding something to post (which might be kind of obvious) so today I was watching really hard for something. There wasn't. I'm tired of working and a lot of people around me are working more than I and so they're tired too.

Oh wait! There was one thing. We have an important audit tomorrow and therefore got an email that said the following: "Tomorrow is business casual (no sneakers/jeans). Scott will be working this effort, so please pick up his work as required. " Here's how I understood it at first: "Tomorrow is business casual (no sneakers/jeans). Scott will be working [on getting dressed], so please pick up his work." The funny part is that this kind of made sense...we're all rather out of it and so obviously need extra time to get dressed.

Sunday: books

Last night I realized I had started book 2 in a series before book 1. It was rather depressing because there was a lot of the beginning of book 2 that was rather confusing. So I stopped book 2 and started book 1.

I'm still a bit annoyed.

Saturday: going crazy?

The scene: Amanda's office. There are a ton of papers on her desk and an empty plastic water bottle.

*The water bottle tips over.

*Amanda thinks "grr."

*The water bottle tips over again.

*Amanda thinks "YOU DUMB WATER BOTTLE! I'LL THROW YOU AGAINST THE WALL IF YOU MISBEHAVE!"

*Amanda starts laughing out-loud as she realizes that she just yelled at the empty water bottle.

*Amanda decides she might be going crazy.

*Amanda moves the water bottle to a safer location and continues her work.

Friday: hmm

So I was writing my post (which I have again written twice) and found this in the middle.

"A plan of how to eat donuts for dinner and not get fat. It might mean invisable donuts. They don't taste as good though."

Let's just say I had no idea that was going to be written until it actually was. However, I did decide that since I need to work tomorrow (all day) I'm going to get myself a donut. The problem with Ben and I both working so much lately is that we have no groceries. No yogurt for breakfast, we just ran out of bread, no lunch meat, no sliced cheese, no fruit, no milk, and we're lacking several other things that are a bit more minor. On the happy side though, since I don't have yogurt for breakfast I don't feel as guilty picking up a donut for breakfast.

Thursday: sneaky

Third time's a charm...the first post I had written I decided not to post, and the second one was too confusing. So we'll go with Five Question Friday.

1. What was the first car you owned?

Well, I suppose it would be the blue Subaru, which I own through marriage. I've never picked out a car that I was going to pay for and drive.

2. What song are you embarrassed to know the lyrics to?

I can't think of one. But Ben is embarrassed that I know the Pirate song...

"I'm a pirate. A dirty rotten pirate. I put poison in my mother's shredded wheat. How neat. My chief delight is to start a fight and I bash little kids in the head, till they're dead."

3. Have you ever had stitches?

No, but I use a lot of bandaids

4. What was your first job?

I was a paper delivery person. Nathan and I split the route and Mom was nice enough to do the Saturday morning deliveries so that we could sleep in.

5. Who is your favorite Sesame Street character?

Well, when I was a small child it was apparently Big Bird. Now...that's a tough question. Probably the aliens.

Wednesday: picture

The next one is started!

Tuesday: the day we've been waiting for

Today was layoff day. Ben and I didn't get laid off. Our friends didn't get laid off. In the end, fewer people than expected got laid off...yay.

I'm tired. So is Flurry.

Monday: quilt

The quilt (and pillowcases are finished)! I don't love either of these pictures, but they work.

I like how Flurry looks in this one.

Sunday: eggs

We just started buying some eggs from our friend Luke. He's had chickens for about a year; I'm not sure why it took us so long. Anyway, we now get eggs of all different colors. It is much more interesting.

Today I wore my Flurry outfit...grey pants to match her grey spots, a white shirt to match her fur, and a green sweater that matches her eyes. She's obviously thrilled.

Saturday: wheat

I had to work this morning. I got the thing accomplished that I wanted to, but it is always sad to have to work on the weekend.

In the evening we went to Clay and Jess's for pizza and games. We played a new game called Pitch which is kind of like Euchure but for more players. Then we played Settlers. Clay pulled a devious move in which he traded a whole bunch of people for wheat and then played the monopoly card which let him take all the wheat back. It was a great evening with friends.

Friday: morning

Today I had to get up for work so early that even Flurry thought it was too early...and usually she's up the first time the alarm goes off. This time I had to push her out after the second alarm (she was between me and the edge of the bed.)

The only good thing is that the alarm interrupted a dream that was about to become a nightmare. Nathan and I bought a house. I'm not really sure why, since we weren't planning on being there very often (and therefore hadn't furnished it.) One day it rained really hard, so I went in the basement. Oh my, it was a disaster. The previous owners and left all their stuff down there, and it was leaking like a sieve. There were leaks in the ceiling and a small waterfall coming down the wall.

The rain stopped and we went for a look around. We found some roof snaps that had been undone, so we re-snapped those. We saw the house had a pool and a toddler lived in the house behind us. The landscaping was rather excessive and while it was beautiful I wondered who was going to do the upkeep.

By the time we got to the front door, Ben was with me instead of Nathan. I was about to go inside when I heard a "STOP!!" So I stopped. Ben noticed this odd shaped hole by the front walk and said that he had read about such things in Scientific American. It was a new way to do something really bad to the people in the house. I don't remember what exactly, but really scary. Then a big guy with a beard comes out our front door and the alarm goes off, just in time.

Thursday: sleepy

It was another busy day. I think I dealt with all the super-emergencies, but that kind of left all the normal emergencies ignored. And now it's bed time. Yay bed. My pillowcases are almost done and then it'll be time to put the new quilt on the bed.

Wednesday: highlighters

Today I was using a highlighter and making copies and realized how cool it is that highlighters are almost invisable when you make copies.

That prompted the question...which came first: the Xerox or the highlighter? My guess was the highlighter. I went to wikipedia.

The highlighter was invented in 1962. The photocopier hit the markets in 1959.

Tuesday: work

Work was super busy today. I'm covering for someone on vacation, and things exploded. So not only is there a lot to do, but I'm not very familiar with what is going on. My desk was fully covered with stuff by 10am and it kind of stressed me out. I left without completely cleaning it up, but what's the point? I need it first thing tomorrow.

Flurry hunted a big bug tonight. I flushed it down the toilet.

Monday: 5 question Friday

I'm out of other things to say, so I thought I'd copy some random questions

1. How much time do you spend on the computer a day?

I spend a lot of hours on the computer. Probably 4-7 hours while at work and then 1-5 hours after work. Less on the weekends.

2. Will you pay for your children's college or raise them to pay for their own way?

I don't know; Ben and I haven't really talked about it. However, we have been blessed by not having to pay tuition bills, so I'd like to pay for it.

3. Have you ever been in a car accident?

Only once on Elephant day. It was scary but no one was seriously hurt.

4. What is your favorite book?

Probably "The Sparrow" by Mary Doria Russell, but I do have lots of books that I love. Just ask Jess...she asked for some books to read and I gave her a small library.

5. Do you make your bed everyday?

Lately we have been, partially so that Flurry can get around a bit better. It does make the room look a lot nicer.

Sunday: Flurry and Firefly

Ah, Firefly is streaming on Netflix so I'm watching them again while quilting. I just got finished with the one where they're searching for some people and so look under the place mats. I think that part is hilarious.

Here's Flurry without her cast and the cast, decorated by the vet. Flurry is still getting used to having four legs.

Saturday: happy anniversary!

Today is Dad and Pat's sixth anniversary. I was trying all day to figure out what I wanted to say, and nothing seemed to come together, so I apologize if the following rambles a bit.

Dad and Pat met when Nathan and a friend of his hooked them up. I don't really remember very much about Pat initially, but I did see a wonderful change in my dad. Not only did he start to be excited about life again, but he also started changing habits that I never thought he would. Before he would never drink coffee, and now he has favorite flavors.

Over the years I've gotten to know Pat better and couldn't ask for a better step-mom. I know that she is always there if I need anything and prays for all her children every day. She is a wonderful, caring person with a great sense of humor too.

Happy anniversary Dad and Pat...and I pray for many more to come.

Friday: what I remember

This is what I remember. I know I have forgotten parts or remember parts incorrectly, so feel free to add/change... Watch out, it's a tear jerker.

Mom started feeling terrible mid-February. Really bad. They tried all sorts of different medicines, but nothing worked. I stopped by the house before leaving for a mission trip and she cried because she felt so bad...something that just didn't happen.

While on the trip I learned that they thought it was lymphoma...bad but curable. I called Dad's office later in the week (he later said he was hoping I wouldn't find him). We talked a bit and he asked if he could pick me up at the airport.

I saw him at the end of the concourse and immediately knew that something was wrong. Aunt C, a Bible, and a box of tissue were with him. I was told that Mom had caner and had 6-12 months to live. Dad and I sat in the back of the car while Aunt C drove us home.

At home Mom apologized (as though it was her fault) for being sick. One of the first things she said was that she wouldn't be at my wedding. At the end of the weekend she told me she was proud of me and to keep working hard in school - no one in her family had ever gotten very far. She also said she had so many other things to tell me...and I never found out what they were.

The Friday night before she died Ben and I went bowling and then went to visit Mom. I smelled of smoke and so couldn't get very close, but still got as close as I could. She was lying in bed with only a little light on. Maybe the TV...I can't remember.

Allison and I met on Monday to work on a computer programming project for class and then I went to talk to a consoler at Hope. I have no idea what we talked about although I don't remember feeling very comfortable. Half-way through the session he got called away only to come back and tell me Mom was in the hospital. Apparently they had a really hard time tracking me down. Anyway, this random guy brings me over to the hospital and somehow I end up in Mom's room. And she complements me on what I was wearing. It was a black skirt and a green paisley top - not a shirt I wore very often.

I then found out that she had a really bad infection which has a really low survival rate even in healthy people. For Mom it would mean amputation of at least a leg and she would be on a respirator if she did survive. And the cancer would still be there. So she decided against the operation, and in doing so show me how to die without fear.

Things then get a little fuzzy, but they moved Mom into another room. Ben came over with some different clothes. We must have eaten something because I remember needing a toothbrush and one of the nurses brought one. Things were feeling incredibly out of control so Dad told me all that I had to be in control of was my backpack. Since it couldn't move on it's own or talk or really do anything I accepted that responsibility. Ben went to get a camera for our last family picture...one of the hardest smiles I've ever pretended to smile. The Fremont family came and I know they were there when Mom died, but I don't remember much else. In fact, I don't even remember interacting much with Mom besides saying some last good-byes. Mom's speech quickly deteriorated and I think she died soon after midnight.

Dad wanted me to go home with him and Nathan, but I refused. Maybe he thought everyone would be asleep, but all sorts of people were still up at that time. Ben and I sat in Lichty lobby with the blanket that Mom made for me. I don't know how long we were there, but we talked about how lucky we were to have parents that loved us.

I got to skip classes for the rest of the week. I spent a lot of time at home (I remember doing some math phys on something with vector fields.), but also spent a lot of time at school. I had done poorly at my last materials class so I at least went to those classes. John and Brian took me out to 8th Street Grille for lunch after one class.

I wore my brightly colored skirts for the visitation. I remember it being really busy. Dad met Ben's parents for the first time and Ben met most of my relatives for the first time.

As for the funeral, it again is pretty fuzzy. I remember following the casket out of the church holding on to Ben's hand so tightly because I could barely see through the tears.

I have some fun Flurry pictures.

One night I was looking for Flurry all over, but she wasn't in any of her normal spots. After I had given up I happened upon her on the washer with some of our clothes.

Here she is tonight, hoping that she can get her cast off tomorrow!

Sunday: Happy Easter

Happy Easter! Today we celebrated Easter with Dusty and Laura...we went to church and then had dinner at our house.

Flurry managed to yank some of the padding out of her cast and now she's acting like it is hurting her a little bit. :(

Friday: prodigal

Earlier this year, if you had asked me what the word prodigal meant I would have probably blundered around, coming up with something like "A person who left something very good for something very bad." Well, it turns out that the word means "recklessly extravagant." The prodigal son was a prodigal because he squandered away his entire inheritance, leaving himself with nothing.

We had a church series on the Prodigal God...God gives away his love with reckless extravagance (to sum up 7 weeks in one sentence.) On this Good Friday, I'd also like to put forth the idea that Jesus was a prodigal too. We watched "The Passion of the Christ" at Bible Study. Jesus was tortured and murdered, but as he says, "No one can take my life from me. I give it freely." He had the choice with every step of the journey to end his suffering, but he chose not to. That was prodigal Love.

Thursday: Mars colonist

It's official: not only am I normal, but I could be a Mars colonist!! Hip-hip-hooray!!

http://www.google.com/virgle/application.html#virgle_assessment

"Well, you're distressingly normal and could conceivably adjust to life as a deep space pioneer, though we recommend instead that you leave the Mars missions to the serious whack jobs who scored over 130 and instead finish year 3 of law school, tuck your toddler into bed, design Web 2.0 applications, run for Congress or do whatever other normal, healthy, middle-of-the-road thing you're currently doing with your normal, healthy, middle-of-the-road life. If you're determined to give Virgle a try, though, you can submit your video here."

Thursday: what if

Some days I find myself worrying way too much about the "what ifs" of life. It annoys me.